Am I thinking too much? Or is this one of the low point of our relationship? I guess my mood swing was the cause of it...

I've just thought about us. Am I being unfair to you? That I want you to fit into my perception of what a boyfriend should be and not let you define yourself. Do I still feel that you still owe me due to the vast amount of hurt that you'd inflicted on me in the past? I know you are trying your best, but the past isn't something that is easy to be scraped off from my mind. I want to let go of it too, but I really don't know how.

I know I'm imperfect, and you're really the best thing that has ever happened to me because eventually, you still chose me.

Baby, I really don't want to take you for granted. I love you so much, so much.

Time really flies. And you gonna pass out in 1 week's time!

Time really flies when I'm with you too. I guess I'm pms-ing now, which sucks because the time I'm able to spend with you is already so limited yet I'm still being so moody. At times, I ask myself if I really love you, or whether I'm still with you because I'm so used to you being beside me. I admit sometimes I tell myself that I don't feel much for you anymore, to stop myself from hurting so much from thinking about the way you treat me in the past. But I know deep down in my heart I still love you a lot. As cliche as it may sound, I know I can't live without you. Life for both of us for this 2 years gonna be hard. But I know you'll tell me that you'll always be there for me, just like how you whispered that into my ears just now.

And between now and then, till I see you again, I'll be loving you.
Love, me.